The name is jianyi,
a fun person trapped in an introvert's body;
this phenomenon caused by the loss of 2 highly-valued friendships,
one of which salvaged,and the other:
GONE FOREVER.
Save the Earth!

MYCTs are finally over!! Yay!! But there are endless tutorials to be done, and I think the worst is preparing the GP reading file for file check. OMG, one whole cardboard box of newspapers waiting for me to cut and paste. And there's PW too. My group havent done anything during the holidays!! We are gonna be screwed.

First movie together today! ^^ Although I got a scolding at home after that, I still dont regret going out.


Scold scold scold. All you know is to scold when things aren't right. Why can't you find out the cause instead? You scold me for staying out late, you say that I've changed, and you said tat I was a disappointment. Throughout the whole ranting session, you never took in my explanation. I really wish that you can look at things from my perspective. Really. This post is here because I know you will never read it. And I can't imagine what might happen if u did.


PW today! Followed by shopping for grocery at Plaza Sing. Had a really fun time ^^. Thursday would be better! Oh yeah!

I'm bidding farewell to my laptop already. Won't be seeing it till maybe end of mid years. LOL. Bye FB, bye blogger, bye msn, and sadly, bye TWITTER, my fav website :)

See you soon!

CUTE!


AHHH. I must be mad. If I ain't, then I will be sooner or later.

MS TEO, you must study everyday of next week, if not you shall bear the consequences of the curse you put upon yourself. You better watch it man.

See what I mean? I'm putting a curse on myself so that I'll study. Everybody have their status 'busy', or they aren't even online. And I'm the only who seem to have a lot of time. OMG you better start studying. AHHHHHHHHHHH.

Life sucks, I'm going to school to do something that isn't within my responsibilities. And for that, half a day will be gone because I've a feeling the teacher i/c won't be around when I need her. And the person wants it done by next week, when the notice came like yesterday? What the heck.

Sorry everyone, if you are irritated by me. I know I seem pushy for the past 2 weeks, and  I'm really sorry for that. I don't know why, but I really can't help it. Really sorry. :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

Oh my god what's happening to me?????????????


Went for SCO today. Really reluctant to, because the people I'm going with just aren't right. Anyway, met ELysia and Xuelin to sign up for Water Venture at Kallang. The receptionist was real funny, which reminds me of Amin from TRU. Aish. A hole in my pocket now. :( Looking forward to the kayaking course on 19th!

Dinner at MOS, just a lonely twosome with Elysia. And the concert after that, which I can't bother to elaborate upon. Familiar faces around, such as beloved Mr Liu Bin, my pri sch conductor :)

Haiz, it's so hard getting a reply from you. It's business ok, not crapping around like I always do. It's almost 1 now, and I have been waiting since 12+ and there's still nothing from you. Really tired, you know. I want to sleep, but I need your answer too! My mum will kill me if I fell asleep in front of my laptop. Tell me what to do!


It's a fun day today! Despite the 3-hour long math tutorial, the U I got for class assessment and the not-so-nice weather, I still enjoyed myself very much. Really.

Went kayaking at Lower Seletar Reservoir as part of SEP. Ah. It's been so long since I've kayaked. The last time was in Sec 3. OBS. SHIOK. I'm signing up for the course soon. Firstly because I'm really interested and secondly for NYAA. Speaking of which. Stupid huang lao shi didn't let us do it in sec school. Or I won't be having such a hard time now. :( AISH.

Went to Khatib for dinner after that, ate at Jame's uncle's nasi lemak stall. The food was fantastic, and his uncle was very generous to charge us only $10 for 7 people. The leftover money contributed by us was spent on 3 boxes of CRUNCH ice-cream. Omg, I really think we are crazy. I don't think I will be eating any ice-cream for the next few months. :/

Bottle tree park at night isn't nice. Because there isn't much light there, which you can't take good pictures with the pathetic camera phones and the trees look scary. Shucks, should have remembered to bring my cam. Regret like shit now. Just missed the opportune moment to spam pictures! ARGH!

But it was fun. :D


WHAT THE F IS THIS! THOUGH I'M EASY-GOING BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN JUST GIVE ME ANY SHITTY POST! SERIOUSLY WHAT THE F LAH!! KAY CAPS ARE HARD TO READ.

You took away the last and only thing I thought I could believe in. All the training I've gone through the past few years are useless. For the past few years I was proud to say that I'm the VP of blah blah blah. For 4 solid years, I could confidently say that yes, I'm at the top. Now what. WTF. I have experience ok. Why is it that someone who isn't even serious can take that place? Isn't this bias? 2 from the same section are at the top just because the previous top was from that section too?

Fine. This is all my fault. It's my fault for being complacent, my fault for thinking that I'm so good, my fault that I am sounding like a sore loser now. MY FAULT. GREAT EXPECTATIONS ONLY BRING GREAT DISAPPOINTMENT. 爬得越高，跌得越低。 Famous quote from my papa. I have only myself to blame, for thinking so highly of myself. :'( 

没有那么大的头，就不要戴那么大的帽！Famous quote from my neighbour. Come to think of it, that quote was meant for me.

I have nothing left. I'm not proficient in sports, I'm not good in my studies, I suck in playing music, I'm a paranoid admirer and I do no have what it takes to be a leader. Oh man, didn't know I was such a lousy person.


Oh what the heck. I don't give a damn. At least I still have my sense of humour. No one can steal that away from me, unless I get depression one day. I don't rule out that possibility, afterall I'm studying in AJ. It's not meant to rhyme anyway. Everything in life is just a joke.

Laugh people, laugh. As you can see, the joke is on me.


...

I feel like a deflated balloon now. The wait had been long. Every day I count down the number of hours left. Everyday I think about how life could be better for you. Everyday I brainstormed for ways for you to have a better journey so that I can tell you on the day you are free. It's alright if you ignore my messages. I understand, 'cause you're tired. You're tired and you don't want to be bogged down by these info. But no. You are as lively as ever. You still have the energy to have fun and enjoy urself. Alright, I see the picture now. All my worries are non-existent. You never needed my help. I imagined them all. I'm the one who looks like a crazy person, ranting about things that are insignificant to you. It has always been me, isn't it?

It's okay. This is not the first time anyway.


Sent Bro off for his enlistment today. He asked me if I would miss him, and I told him I wouldn't. Actually I will. Probably not as much as Papa and Mama, but yes, I will miss him. Even though it's just 2 weeks, the silence in the house is scary. Papa not scolding, Mama not nagging, and I'm not crapping. I do miss him a lot.

Pulau Tekong is fantastic as compared to Pulau Ubin. The recruits refer the BMTC to as Aloha Tekong. You'll understand why when you see the center itself. Our class will be going there for a tour in July. Hopefully I get to see him there. :)

The food was great too! Way, way, way better than AJ's food. (Wahahaha) At least you can swallow it with ease. However, the toilets are horrible. Wonder how Bro is going to survive there, when he's so particular about cleanliness. Oh, is the water from the tap drinkable?

Sigh. I can't wait for him to be back. But, that day will also mark the end of my holidays. :(

The only cheerful thing is that I get to temporarily own an APPLE for 2 weeks. HAHA! Though I would have preferred orange. :P

Enough of slacking already. I WILL START MY TUTORIALS TOMORROW. If not, I shall... ... I shall... ... Hmm. I don't know. BUt the point is, I WILL. I hope.

He's back. :D

Absence diminishes small loves and increases great ones, as the wind blows out the candle and blows up the bonfire.  ---La Rochefoucauld


AHHHH.  TWITTER IS NOT SAFE, NEITHER IS MY BLOG! Is this retribution? *gasps*


GRRR. Lousy ABC. Stole you away for 1 week.

I have been slacking for the past few days, and I seriously don't feel like starting work. Can you blame me? It's the holidays! What else are we supposed to do besides playing!

Friday. When is Friday coming, then I can see my fav person! Miss you like siao already. Friday!!!

Still very excited about next tuesday, when we'll all go kayaking. Yay. I musn't say this in front of my class girls, if not they will start saying NONSENSE again.


Why are people leaving? Just one phone call and I never get to see her again. The last time I saw her she was still bubbly and commenting about how much I've grown. And now she's gone. The very next day, clattering sounds can be heard from the void deck, and I know it is the sound of people setting up an altar. Why? Why do people leave? Why?